Dickie

much to do about nothing

2007-09-07T08:58:06Z

posting posting lalalala trying to post more than once a year

soooo how do u know when its really run its coarse?

love is a funny thing

Can someone help me i think i'm lost

2007-08-24T10:44:34Z

i was trying to get to myspace and i made a wrong turn somewhere....where the hell am i??? it all seems so vaguely familiar....

its been a year (almost)

i'm now moved out of my apartment (that was a fun drunken year)

the highlights of which were halloween party, groundhogs day party , st patricks day when we smashed the shit out of that lepricon , and my birthday party.. am i missing anything????

still with michelle

if anyone didn't know already i no longer work at walmart for almost a year now prolly shortly after my last post i got a job at a cabinet shop "designer specialty" its cool i like it better than dealin with anoying customers all day

can't think of anything else to write and i'm runnin late as usual sooo just hit me up

HOLLY SHIT U PEOPLE STILL POST HERE!?!?!?

2006-10-07T23:57:43Z

sorry after not really having a computer for so long(again) i completely forgot this place even existed til i started cleaning out the pile of junk-e-mail that had formed and noticed an lj reminder

soo whats goin on with me hmmm...

well for those of you who don't know yet i have an apartment now and living with my close friend Jon Rose and this other guy Nic Talebot(SP?) and we live in a spacious 3/2 across from coral square mall

in other news i just recently got my first tattoo...and i'm supper exited by it....i'll have a picture soon...or if u can't wait just find my myspace

another tidbit of info me and Michelle are still together and are actualy coming up on our one year in Nov. (YAY!!!)

yeah i guess thats all the major info ya ned to know right now i'll post again soon i promise(maybe)

and i'll quote it again "everything fades away in the end.."

2006-04-10T09:46:47Z

so i just spent 2 whole days on the road with my dad...a nine your drive to Georgia to pick up my younger brother and another one back. thats the most time i've spent with my dad in i don't know a really long time. no there weren't any revelations on the road or nything it was just me and my dadsitin driving enjoying each others company. After we got lost a bit and stoped at this little resturant for directions i saw someone walk in wearing a warped tour t-shirt which i thought was neat cause i was wearing one of mine

so a while back
saw "V for vendetta" with zanny my brother michelle and daniel.....very good movie you should see it if u haven't already. Infact it was so good i'm thinking of beeing V for halloween. V doesn't believe in consequences and maybe nither do i. So i lost a bet and had to cut like nearly half my hair off not so bad when Zanny cuts his first ALLL OF IT for the seven or eight years that i've known him his hair has always been below his shoulders so it was a little weird....but i geuss we all grow up and need to move on after all he got managers position at Muvieco

so like a month ago i was wistling "chestnuts roasting over an open fire" for no reason i mean it was well after christmas but the funny thing was a few days latter i heard someone else whistling the same thing

ok so i'm up at asscrack of dawn 5:41 like i always am and i'm statin to feel a little tired so i'll continue this randomness later maybe at some other random time

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EDIT

ok so it occured to me after i posted this that i mentioned the whistle coincidence inmy last entry and didn't realize it...i usualy have so much i want to write down in my head playing on repeat so i wont forgett and after a while specialy if i don't update often i forgett weather or not i alrady wrote it in

anywho its a new day and i'm some what rested so heres some more random crap

so when we were coming through gainsville we found an "alternative" radio staion called the buzz which is funny cause there's a buzz down here...but what was really cool was they played alot of music i did not expect to hearall witin a pretty close timespan of each other
i.e.
dresden dolls-coin operated boy , they might be giants-some song i've neer heard , the yeah yeah yeahs-Gold lion(new song no to surprising however i did by the single in vinyl not to long ago), nad a song by anti-flag

change of subject
a little while ago i had this dream where me and my dog bandit(RIP) went to this sleep away camp for pets and there owners only halfway through michelle was there and we went on this like "tunnel of love" type ride for like a really long time and then after that i realized my dog was missing and i freaked out in like this huge panic and then i catch a glypse out the window and see hi beeing escorted to the camp pound or something and i run out and give him a big hug and then i woke up and got really upset

Can you tell me how to get to Sesame St.?

2006-02-21T18:03:14Z

so the other day i was whistling christmas songs for like no reason...it wasn't even cold anymore
and then just yesterday i heard somebody else at work whistling christmas songs too

how come the less money you have the more you feel you need it?
joey says its cause you can never have enough money but that seems backwards like the more money i have the more i want which isn't true cause when i have alot of money i don't really feel the need to spend it but when i have no money thats when i start seeing all the really expensive things i want or want to do that i don't really need at the moment

i've had like this really big urge lately to go fly kites...but it hasn't really been windy at all and that makes me sad : (

harmonica's make me happy again though :D[]

Nofx is today...i haope i can still get a ticket...i tried to get one on thursday but the stupid bitch a the ticketmaster wouldn't take my credit card with out an ID and i don't have a liscence at the momentwhich i tried to fix before hand but did not have the $575 to cover my tickets even after i borrowed money from Joey

why not use my credit card you ask? well you can't split things cash and credit like that at the county clerk aparrently....get a cash advance from the atm??? well tried that and i thought that my pin was the same as my debit card but i was wrong and they put a hold on my card

yeah i didn't like that whole ordeal
well if i can't get a ticket i'll just be playing alot of harmonica

yay

2006-01-12T20:50:30Z

GOT A NEW PHONE (SAME NUMBER) GIVE ME A CALL SO I WILL HAVE YOUR NUMBER....leave a message if i don't pick up

...dreams aint what they used to be...

2005-12-31T11:31:49Z

i just had alot of fun throwing myself onto the concreat at the country club near my house with rob and our skateboards...i actualy landed the four stair before we left...and i tried to bomb the alkway of death but it ended with me beeing introduced head first into a bush.

i think today they broke the record for the number of customers i wanted to punch in the face at walmart...the short bus must have made a pit stop at my store today cause there weremore retards there then i could count...its ok though cause i'm off new years eve

hopefuly this years new years will be alot of fun...and michelle decided to stay here and not visit her sister in orlando so it looks like it will awesome because i'll actualy have someone next to me when the ball drops : D ...xoxox

i've been haveing weird dreams as of late...the all involve people trying to stab or shoot me...and all seeming kinda sci-fi-ish...oh well its prolly nothing
but every time i go to bed angry i wake up with soar knuckles...and i think its cause i'm punching things in my sleep
concert pit withdrawls maybe??
i also aparently push people of beds when i sleep next to them...which i find odd cause i sleep lik a rock when i'm by myself

anyway i was browsing this improv site that i heard about on A.O.T.S. which i find myself watchin alot late at night...and i came across this great idea and i could help smileing while i read the wole thing and everyone that participated with the idea had the same reactions so since this idea is so amazingly awsome i'm going to try and recreat it for my birthday party...which i'm planning on having in march instead of may so that it can be like a pre party to the march party....which is good cause there is no alcohol at the "pre party event" and it'll only last about an hour...just trust me when i say that this "pre party" will do the impossible blow the U-haul party out of the watter...well i geuss thats enough confusing by not telling you whats going to happen but you'll just have to wait and see

danger will robinson those alien women will enslave your mind

2005-12-27T14:28:32Z

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"don't get offended if i seem absent minded"

2005-12-24T07:59:21Z

i don't know where my emotions are
i think they are playing hide and seak on me
i find them well enough but its never the one i was looking for
like someone put the right emotion in me at the wrong time

i cried for an hour straight on a late night unshceduled trip to orlando
i haven't cried that much since she died

not many people were very happy with this trip
but i was surprised by laurens roomate makeing pancakes when i got there
and i got to go to the 'drop shop' finally ...its a really neat record shop much better than any youd find in ft.lauderdale and i spent too much money in there

i also got to fullfill my longtime dream of going to a 'Sonic'...they always play those comercials here but the closest one i know of is in orlando

i got to see lauren who with exception of the thursday before i hadn't seen in like 2 months and i very much chilled wih her and her roomates/neighbors and i just happened to be there on a day that she wasn't working at any of her several jobs...we had a good time

when i got back i talk to michelle and we had a good night
and this weeks been really good
i haven't really hung out with daniel though and i didn't really much hang out with zanny either..bu i stole his bed for a night
i still have funny thoughts though and i'm sad sometimes and i can't figure it out...i think it may be my subconcious looking for attention:::quiet subconcions and eat your fish heads(bangs cne on attic grate):::

my christmas gift i'm making for michelle is going to take longer then expected cause i don't have something i need and this is slightly upsetting

i need to get off my ass and go see jamie too
and the kelly's cuase i think they are both around south florida and easily contactble this holiday
pleasing everyone is hard...pleasin yourself only takes one hand though

don't ask me cause i don't understand the question

2005-12-24T07:24:40Z

i want to punch holes in the sky and make clouds from the torn air
animals will march with the breeze and drops will form and fall to the earth

my heart is so filled with warmth it rises from the ashes and grows wings
it bursts into flames and the soot is caried away to places i'd rather be anyway

the water cools the flames and the embers dance bright and happy again

making everyone happy is hard to do

::::i get lots of cookies this time of year though:::

trying a little harder

2005-12-07T18:54:56Z

i think me and daniel can do anything...and i mean literaly anything if we put our minds together...but at what cost??? (i.e. the U-hall party no one thought we'd pull off)

cost of home made pimps and hoes costumes = $0
cost to get into club quench before 12am = $0
cost to drive to and from miami = $30
cost of drinks bought between the 2 of us = $50
cost of lost/stolen phone while dancing = $129 + tax

drunken night with daniel at a Pimps and Hoes party in miami = PRICELESS

so yes just one day after reactivating my phone i lose it at a party...i know i know i can hear your screaming and wailing about it from here...i'm sorry guys i know you were all excited about talking to me and calling me at all hours of the nght again but if you know me then you know thats just something that i would do
there's always coments you could leave here or on myspace and i'll try to get back to you...or you could actually e-mail me and i could actualy check it

as for michelle (ok well that would be a much longer lj entry) lets just say that girls are complicated ....right now she's studying for her exams so i can't see her til thuirsday night : (
hopefuly we can find something really fun to do...anyone got any ideas/wanna hang out???

anyway hven't really slept at night lately again/as usual....but i found out that they didn't replace anime unleashed on G4tv they just moved it to even later like 4am later...but i'm glad i cuaght it cause there was this brilliant show on called "colorful" where the entire show consisted of animated shorts of horny japanese guys tyring to or by chance getting a glipse of hot japanese girl underwear...this usualy results in nose bleeds endless tears of happyness and/or usualy followed by imense physical pain due to their lack of attention to what they are doing...ok so maybe its not exactly brilliant but it is artisticly animated and very funny/interesting....i have alot of///// in this entry

I <3 MALTA

2005-12-01T09:53:54Z

remember how i was just saying how neat the pbs radio staion is at night well they just played Jump In Line (Shake, Shake Senora) - Harry Belafonte...you know the song from beatlejuice

michelle hates me...except when i kiss her cause i kiss good...but other than that apparently i suck....i will need to fix this

so tomrrow/today is PAY DAY!!!

OH AND MY PHONE SHOULD BE WORKING THIS AFTERNOON!

the perpetual fuck up

2005-11-28T18:30:23Z

what do you do when you realize the person or people you look up to don't live up to the idealistic image you had in your head
i geuss this happens to people alot...sometimes even when they don't realize it

:::the little smile face on the little goldfish crackers really makes you wanna smile back if you actualy look at it:::

i love my parents alot and they did the best they could and their parents did the best they could and so on so why is it that nothing changes and if nothing changes whats the point in trying...then again if you don't try you can't prove anything wrong...i used to think this when i was really yung too like 9 or 10

is it like a genetic thing???

::theres this really interesting radio show on the public broadcasting station where they do skits and have geust musicians/bands playing and it reminds me of what radio shows would havesounded like in the 50's its very homely the shows called "a prarie home companion" the shows only about 2hrs and only on sat and sunday as far as i know...way later in the night the same station always plays some good jaz and way latter lik 3am they play some really awsome/weird regae "sounds of the carribean"::::

damn it takes me long to get my thoughts outa my head and onto the screen...and even when i do its only like bits and fragments...i mean i've i've been on the computer for over an hour already and this is all i have....and then anything i say sounds dumb and rehashed anyway...plus my add keeps gettin the best of me...i was never any good at doing things fast i guess

..its like my dad has worked really hard most of his life.hes super talented in alot of ways and done some pretty amazing things making a bunch of money in the process and what has he got to show for it....not much
4 kids
me and ryan are the screw ups...we got more heart and less talent....robb and rach are the smart ones and a little less edgey

let me lay day for a bit i'm kinda tired
ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz (out like a light)

oops sorry guys fell asleep on ya and its like 8 hours later and i gotta go to work so i'll finish this later

sacred cows make the best hamburgers

2005-11-15T01:03:33Z

"steal this movie" and after you do watch it....its about the life of abbie hoffman...a radical protest leader in the 60's and 70's....plus jenean gerafallo is in it

it angers me when people see things the way there told to and not for themselves but i geuss that angers alot of people....i would have been a great hippie though

so in other more exciting news i'm dating michelleas of like 1 or 2am this morning...and i'm alreadyducking from her parents....plus my neck is rather soar

oh and just so no one can say it came outa nowhere....i'm going to chicago in january to visit my brother for a month or two...if i really like it there i might move up eventualy...not sure though

more surprises latter....yay its just like christmas or an unbirthday or somethingaren't you excited i know i am

dicky584 @ 2005-11-11T05:32:00

2005-11-11T10:55:24Z

everyday should be like this
woke up past noon on Zanny's couch
dicked around for a bit then daneil Zanny and i decided to go to festival fleamarket where they gave me $601 in foodstamps for huricane relief after waiting in line for like an hour
on the drive there we almost hoped out of the car to kill someone cause they cut me off then proceded to try it again and shouted very rudely like they didn't deserve it when we flipped them the bird (sometimes violence is the answer) grabed a slice of pizza then drove zanny to Movieco where he let me and daneil wander and watch whatever we wanted so we jumped into the nearest playing theater which happened to be chicken little...i was very pleased with this film infact i haven't had that much fun at an animated feature since finding nemo..then we got some food and hoped into jarhead which was interesting and i would deem it as pretty acurate as far as the military aspect goes although there was more crying in that film(by the actors) then i've seen in most chick flix. so 2 movies down and its off to the movieco arcade for some DDR and Galaga waiting for zanny to get off and we headed to the red lion pub for kareoke ...and who should we bumb into at the red lion pub but Danny Caperton someone i haven't seen in going on 5 years...he just got out of the army and he's been chillin in sofldrank some beers talked about 'the ol days' and music and other worldly buissness. joey and michelle stoped by and chilled for a bit which was really cool and then we went home but not before stoping by a gas station to steal an 8ft log subway sign that was laying unatended against the gas station wall
yep a good day

so you don't wanna hear about my good day

2005-11-08T06:22:51Z

this is the first entry since my power got turned on thursday
haloween was good i guess...but mostly just cause i finished my costume..the party kinda sucked
lots of not horribly bad but generaly not good and rather anoying things and a few good ones here and there lately
i hate this state
but all the the dead trees almost make it look like fall : D

and here are some lyrics by jon brion cause i don't wanna write anymore

You've gotta hope
That there's someone for you
Strange as you are
Who can cope
With the things that you do
Without trying too hard

'Cause you can bend the truth
Till it's suiting you
These things that you're wrapping all
around you
Never know what they will amount to
If you're life is just going on without you
It's the end of the things you know
Here we go

You've gotta know
That there's more to this world
Than what you have seen
'Cause we all
Have a limited view
Of what it can be

As we move along
With our blinders on

Each one of us feels a little stranded
And you can't explain or understand it
Each one of us is on a different planet
Amidst all the to and fro
Someone can say hello
Here we go

Feeling that someone really gets you
Well it's something that noone should
object to
It could happen today so I suggest you
Skip your habbit of laying low
It's the end of the things you know
Here we go

Someone can say hello
You old so and so
Here we go

i am the dark knight and don't you forget it

2005-11-08T05:08:54Z

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Bring me my coffin and a pint of blood

2005-10-23T14:26:24Z

so the other day i slept all the daylight hours...went to sleep at sunrise woke up at sunset
my parents are concerned that i might start sucking their blood next

i love cheezy horror movies...especialy monster movies....i really like the "giner snaps" trilogy
"cause you can't spell SLAUGHTER with out LAUGHTER"

i had another weird dream night before last. this one involve me on a bad baseball team up against a rival team very much better then us and we we're being coached by non other then Kevin Costner as the coach...who would no doubtedly have led us to victory if i hadn't woken up

so this morning after repeating my previous sleep patern and falling asleep at sunrise i fell into a really nice sleepthe kind where you close your eyes and when you time passes by and you open them again like nothing happened yet you feel rested as hell...except i'm not rested as hell cause i only got like 3hours of sleep some some asshole who will remain nameless decided to call me at 9am and tell me how well his night went...C'mon people call me at like 4am when i'm actualy awake at 9am i'm prolly sleeping. If you have a good reasn to call then by all means do. Exceptble reasons would be; your drunk as fuck, your in trouble, your emotionaly distrought, something realy cool is going down and i can't miss it......but if your calling me and waking me up to tell me how well your night went then your a jack ass cause now i can't get back to sleep

consiquentialy since i'm up i am now recruited by my parents to huricane-proof the house thanx a load jerk off

Also Available....

2005-10-20T19:20:25Z

no one was calling me for a few days....i didn't really think twice about it i was just kinda glad everyone decided not to bother me....so then i go to make a call a little while ago and my service is cut off ha

i had an unsettling dream last night/this morning (i go to sleep when the sun comes up) i walk into a school theater and we're doing an updated rendition of the Wizard of Oz. I'm supposed to be playing the lion yet somehow the fact that i was supposed to be playing a somewhat major role in this play has slipped my mind.i haven't learned any of the songs or my lines and the show is going to start in a few short hours. the tin man helps me out a bit and is trying to go over our main song with me and i'm writting it down but the box i'm using for a table is all wet and the ink is running and the words are blurring. then i spend like an hour looking for an extra script which no one has. Jay Lynch was the drama teacher **(Jay lynch owned a youth drama troup called "hyperactive" i attended with all 4 of my syblings for a few years then ironicly enough he became my highschool drama teacher for a short while) Jay is making his usual overly sarcastic slightly dickheaded remarks about me not preparing but thats jay. then i saw some guy in a lion suit and was releved thinking he was my understudy..WRONG turns out he plays my evil twin in one of the scenes and i'm still srewed...now wondering where the hell MY costume is someone points out its in a basket on the stage so i grab it and run to the nearest bathroom to change which is just stage right and still visible from the audience do i close the door? no. do the curtains make an untimely opening? yes...people are cursing at me i flick them off. dream ends.

so what have i learned from this...i am more afraid of disapointing people than scary monsters...if this had been a dream about flesh eating zombies, that! i could have handled

PA - PA - PA - POW

2005-10-01T10:22:57Z

finaly got off my lazy ass and got and put up the picture to go with the mess of disorganized thoughts i've been claiming as theories

save a place for me in santa fe

2005-09-22T09:17:47Z

perspective is a double sided coin which when looked at from diferent sides appears completly different but in the end it adds up the same now doesn't it

theory # 3:
i feel we are beeing bred to be complacent in this country. comfortably numb...unwilling to eduacate oursselves or take the education we have and do something with it. I don't have any proof to show you(A-because its 4am and B-case in point i'm to lazy to look for it) but its been said that our countries educational rating in comparisson to other countries have been slowly dropping out of the top ranks meanwhile the lower ranks catch up and even the odds which i think is just fine for them....our edducational budget has dwindled futher down as more "pressing" issues come about...but whats more important then the education of our youth our future leaders...well if you think about it the uneducated can be easily lead swayed either way without actualy needing any proof...just sheep beeing led wolves in disguise. What happened to the changes our hippie parents fought so hard for....its as though we've gained their laid back attitude but none of their fight...why is ignerance and closemindedness still more prevelant then free thinking in a country thats more free then any other....is it our government that keeps us from overthrowing this animal farm erassing ideals of morality until we are all nearly illiterate and can't tell one truth from another lie

so am i numb or sober now ....i can't tell is that a problem?

i had a fairly good day today
feelings of accomplishment is like a spoonful of sugar that helps the anoyance/agony of work go down
the money helps too
helped some friends out
sang karioki and cruicified oasis' wonderwall but not as bad as kats harcore version of nodoubt whoch was grrreat...plus i was really hyper tonight for i don't know what reason...i just felt energized and silly
and i'll get what i want soon enough

'now we greeve cause now is gone
things were good when we were young

is it safe to say
i was right to leave
will i ever learn'

theory # 4:
Emo music is not only part of the cover up but is also pure evol granted its spelled different but it means the same thing the reason i spell it like that is cause its love backwards.....see the've tricked us all. sure at first we were all like we hate this whinying trendy bitchmusic...and then the well crafted catchy progressive guitar riffs lured us in. the in depth lonely easily relating lyrics brought new meaning. and before we know it we're all crying and wallowing in our depressive holes searching for our next bottle of perscribed happiness....when i listened to punk and ska there was none of this depressed EMO-tional bullshit i besides beeing a little weird was fine but as soon as satins somber songs took over it was all down hill

once again guys don't take this shit seriously i'm just fuckin around in my thoughts...i find them somewhat satiracle so just read enjoy my ramblings find yourself a nugget of truth and laugh the rest off ok

the dolphin trainer was very sad after setting his dolphins free

2005-09-19T03:10:59Z

he claimed he no longer had a porpoise in his life

this was just funny and oughta nowhere today
jen:"my cat almost caught on fire today"

leaving adams house after trying to clean up a bit
passengers jon rose and mark w.
time aprox 11:15
just as were pulling out
jon-hey theres a cup of beer still on the trunk of that car
i stop the car and pause
mark-just leave it there going to be finding bottle caps and cups for the next 3 weeks
jon-well thats relly not good adams parents will kill him for every bottlecap found
mark-yeah but it doesn't matter that much considering his neighbors just saw us walking out with a keg i think they know there was a party here last night
:::this is the part that makes the last few lines pointless:::
*and then jon said something really funny that i can't quite remember now cause i was hungover at the time but trust me it was a real knee slapper

i saw the most emo movie today...but it was like an emo satire and it was made in 1984 and it stars Steve Martin....so its not exactly emo but all the same emo-tions are there
its called The Lonely Guy
and it follows this guys depressing atempt to find a girl any girl to conect to
everything is histericy funny but the sex scene which is just stupid

theory #1:
god is manic depressive...as he made us all in his image
now the purpose in life is to find happyness
we are here to search for a happiness god can not find himself

if your supper religious please don't start yelling at me because i'm not and i don't take what i just said seriously it was just a thought that ran through my head today and i felt it interesting enough to write down

theory #2:
no ones really happy....i don't know a single person that is actualy truly and completly happy
anyone who tells you different is either lying or dillusional
no drugs,alcohol, money, relationship, self help book, topical cream will ever change that
it was always like this since the evolution of human beeings in general
we are too smart to be content with just beeing alive and too dumb to find a solution
best said by douglas adams coming down from the trees was a bad move...in fact even the trees were a mistake ...we never should have left the sea

Whats very cold and cries alot?.....an esk-Emo kid

2005-09-14T10:35:59Z

they even wear hoodies how bout that

this is kinda neat...

a while back when i actauly went to my proverbial job @ wally world i was sent out to push carts
while doing so me and shome fellow cart wranglers stumbled upon three discarded boxes
now this isn't that unusual considering most people think the wallmart parking lot is their personal land fill(we hate this by the way) and we find all sorts of garbage. The cool thing though is every now and then we find an unusaul gem...something weird, random, and spectacular...well atleast nifty enough to brush off and take for ourselves. this was such an occassion. In these boxes were a plethera of old books dating back to the late 60's......maybe 20 of them in each box and after sifting through the rif-raf i found
(in order of least to most favorite)

5)a kite making book
4)a japanese guidbook on strategic warfare
3)a novel based on the monster grendle of baewolf
2)a sci-fi/superhero based maze/puzzle book
(this next one takes the cake)
1)a 1969 yearbook from some random school

there are no signatures in the yearbook and i would like it if my friends would all sign it as if it were one of our yearbooks...even if we didn't go to the same school or if you live far away...give me your adresses and i'll mail it too you...sign anywhere you like even near a picture you like or you think looks like you...make it fun

i need a Kama Payment Plan

2005-09-13T05:39:53Z

heavy weighs our brooding teenage souls in our otherwise aging bodies

ok a few days ago i stayed home from work to dabble in arts and crafts
during the past hurricane warnings my mother purchased an obserdly unecssarily large light
the thing is massive and lights up the hole room
so i thought it would be a neat idae to get some carboard and cut out a bat symbal and tape it on
INSTANT BATSIGNAL!!!

unfortunately this first atempmt failed misserably
the light shined right around my bat symbol
i figure hey i just need to make a bigger signal that covers up more light right?
well second attemt didn't work either
i did get a kind of blur in the middle but nothing near recognizable
last chance i break out the utility belt and get to work
using my super smart powers of deduction i determine its the silver refletor in the light causing the problem and must be removed
well there ended up beeing like 20 screws and several fastening plates in the damn thing
an hour later i finaly took it apart and put it back together minus the reflector

moment of truth
i hit the swithch AND
nothing, zip, zilch nada, nadaIII

i was so freaking pissed
when my dad stoped by he told me cause it was a florecent light which defuses and i needed an incondecent lamp which shines straight instead of around
fuckin science

i've had alot of fun lately....maybe too much fun
i've been drunk alot lately ($5 casses of beer to good to resist)
alot of stress and drama lately too

got to see foo fighters and weezer for free at the last minute
thanx Lauren i had a great time
i started to fall asleep during foo fighters though...i think i missed like 3 songs but having only had 3 hours sleep the night before i give myself a break
Jim and Spencer came too
plus the drive early that mornin (12pm is early for me specialy when i go to sleep at 7am) to the miami seaqarium for jamies birhday
that was really kool too...hot/tirring/expenssive but still really cool
i gotta a picture with a guy in a killer whale suit c'mon u know thats hot

Adams been down and hangign out alot which is reall kool
i can never see enough of that kid he's like the fonz or something
"Eeeeehhhhhhhhhhh!"
Daneil has been back which is really cool too...i missed her crazzy ass

alot of my friends in various diferent groups are starting to meet each other
i'm starting to see a meldding of different friend groups
which is weird bt kool
kause now its like everybodies around no mater where i am
except for joey he's been at scool or work alot
its tough not to have ur right hand man with you
but i geuss i'll have to make due with sparse chillness til next summer

i could ramble on about a bunch of other shit but this entry is already too long so
peace

whats red and black and wite all over

2005-09-01T16:00:56Z

you ever have a sex dream about someone?
ever have a sex dream about someone on weed?
ok j/k -------------------------------------------------why does my head organize
but seriously have you ever had one thats----------------everything to the left
not just the raunchy parts like a scene from cinemax-----regardless of scentence structure
but like all the little intimate yet mundane things
that u don't usually think about
putting on condomes, switching possitions, little akwared moments that u giggle at
laying down next to them latter cause they don't like to cuddle
(i love to cuddle just not this person)
like the whole nine yards

anyway i've had alot of weird dreams lately
which doesn't usualy bother me cause every now and again i get
a sluet of them and usualy quite the contrary i'm amused by their
random imagery and odd forsight into my own thinking
but this one really threw me for a loop

:::movie break, the explorers is on ..great 80's flick:::
like the navigator but gehto rigged but still just as good

i've stayed home alot lately and i sit and watch movies all day
and act like an idiot jumping around in my boxerscause i have too much energy
cause i've been home too much
(watched eternal sunshine the other nite then garden state hense all the love droll sputtering out of my mouth in the previous entry)

i wake up early and plan on getting things done but i don't i just sit around and procrastinate
which i might add i've gotten so good at it borders on art

::::procrastinating right now::::
ifact the movie break was me procratinating from finishing this entry

damn there are ants in my room
i keep seeing one or two find its way out of the junk pile on my desk and crawl around
i think its all the empty Malta bottles that are atracting them

"I hart malta"
very anoyed by the ants though